Do you ever feel haunted by a sense that you might have taken a wrong turn earlier in life? Like this wasn’t the road you’d expected to walk?
My birthday was this month. I turned 27. I blog about my birthday every year. And every year I panic a little because my expectations for my twenties haven’t been met.
My idea of what I should have done in my twenties has always been a bit extreme. 16 year-old me was sure that by this age, I would have flown all over the world, gotten married, had a child, published a novel, and been in the middle of my incredibly successful career as an entrepreneur/fashion designer/author/screenwriter whilst preparing to homeschool.
None of that has happened…and now I wonder what the heck I was thinking in the first place.
It’s great to have dreams and goals and to take action to fulfill them. But having expectations like that is insane and sets you up to undervalue the life you wind up with. I have spent most of my twenties comparing my actual life with my expectations, worrying that I haven’t pushed myself hard enough, and fearing that I’ve gone off-script somehow.
But, the only thing that’s truly gone wrong and the biggest mistake I have made is not appreciating what has happened. Truth be told, life is great! The only way my twenties will have been wasted is if I get through them without feeling ecstatic about all the blessings God has flooded my life with and forgetting that everything has played out exactly the way that He intended.
“Gratitude” is what I’m talking about. If I come out of my twenties with gratitude and joy over my lot, in spite of my expectations, this decade will have been a success. 🙂